Daily Horoscope for Taurus - Pt. 2

You may be revisiting an old issue today as you try to find a workable balance between your individual needs and those of your friends and associates. If you are involved in a project with others, it could be challenging to function as part of the team without becoming less effective. Instead of worrying about your productivity now, just do what you can to fit in with the group.


Once again, my horoscope is bang on...
The question is, do I tag along at work when my supervisor and co-workers take hourly to semi-hourly smoke breaks and take advantage of the fact that I get paid for my entire 1 hour lunch, or do I risk appearing anti-social for the benefit of looking good to the executives? It looks like my dilemma has been answered by the stars. Thanks stars, now I can go back to worry about increasing my wi-fi score on the Mario Kart scene.

Daily Horoscope for Taurus

"Although you may imagine a time when you have a lot more freedom than you do now, these aspirations may be rather disconnected from your present circumstances. Fortunately, your current responsibilities could give you the latitude to express yourself in creative ways as long as your productivity doesn't falter. Be patient; if you do your job well, increased freedom may follow."

While I believe in the general personality traits of astrological signs, I mainly read horoscopes for entertainment value. Igoogle is my new workplace distraction (it didn't take me long to find one of those), and fashioning it to show inspirational quotes, Toronto weather and news, and my astrological sign makes my new workspace seem less foreign. I guess eventually one's horoscope, which is apparently supposed to apply to each and every Taurus, Aries, Libra, etc., etc. in the world at this moment, will apply in some way to your life which will make you say "oooo" and "ahhhh". Well, this one did it for me. And I'm sooo hoping it's right *crosses fingers*.

Ancient Babble

Lips speak words. They can be good words, hurting words, aching words, words of passion, words of hate. Damn lips and their ability to pierce the soul. I wish to hear words from lips that never come. In fact, I can see them there, invisible to the eye but blaring to the heart. They sit on your lips, inside, dying to be uttered. Or perhaps it’s just my imagination with a thousands thoughts of what could happen or may happen, will never happen until you utter those words. Until then should I just sit here and wait. Lips curve into hatred in an instant. Your perfect eyes tell perfect lies while I stare deeply, only in the mind because the physical presence does not exist. What’s more worth my time? I will never know until those lips of urs tell me something more. Lips of blood red, lips of pink, all to tempt the men into thinking you’re something you’re not. But without it, what are we worth? Ask them, they’ll never tell you the truth. No matter what they say, lips do not utter thr truths of the mind. I like to hide behind a mask of make-up, only to enhance and heighten, because I myself can not stand the natural. Those with natural beauty have natural lips, and why do I keep relating this to lips?
I like ninjas. OMG ninja’s are SOOO cool I wanna crap my pants. Like mark told me that one guy, this ninja dude, killed a guy ‘cause he dropped a spoon! Hahaha. What makes no sense is how are ninja’s so small and Asian and still kick ass? Maybe they use the ULTIMATE POWER. Can I have some? I’ll sell it for 23 cents on Ebay. What exactly is the ultimate power. Apparently sitting her humming to urself without eating, sleeping, talking or crapping gives you the ultimate power. Oh, and throw in some Japan music in that’s all like WHHHHAAAA and you got it made. Makes you wonder if it’s really worth it. Cause who can live without crapping?

Not Long for This World...

The world of Pharmacy 1 that is. I hope I didn't scare y'all, but since I've neglected my posting duties for nearly 2 months I figured a semi-shocking come back was in order.

Yes, the store is finally closing and this supervisor is as close to mental and physical exhastion as possible, literally dragging myself to work and back everyday. A dangerous equasion I have discovered first hand:

Lack of staff + incompetence and laziness + coupious amounts of bitchy and cheap customers demanding something for nothing + 7 day workweek + 2 days of summer school = 9 day workweek (better known as insanity).

The only thing that gets me through the day is the thought of the sandy beach and the margarita melting in my hand that is only mere weeks away. Being the typical Taurus that insists on treating myself to many indulgences, I'm taking myself on a well-needed and well-deserved (if I do say so myself) grad trip to Varadero, Cuba with Justin at the end of June. I haven't been down south since I was well under the legal drinking age so a trip sans mom and plus copious amounts of alcohol and a cute boy to share it with is nothing to sneeze at. woot.

Summer school is going well and is slightly entertaining, dispite the fact that most of the people in my class are flighty first year girls that insist on filling the air with consistant giggling at things a 9-year-old might laugh at, and sitting on each other's laps to show affection. Buyer beware - when a fine arts course description reads "no experience or ability to read music necessary" they really mean it. And the package that comes with it pretty scary.

Thinking beyond June when I'll be done school (forever!?) and back from the fantasy world of the all-inclusive beach front is probably about the scariest thing I've ever faced. So to distract myself I've been dwelling on simple pleasures and small indulgences. For example, cherry yogourt. It's my favourite of all possible yogourt delights.

Post-Finals Exhilieration, Point-Form and Ranked

It's the most wonderful time of the year! - in my humble opinion (I could type IMHO, but considering it took me months to finally figure out what the hell that meant, I'll spare the ignorant the trouble), next to Christmas, of course. Don't agree? Here's my list of why spring is the (second!) best time of the year (try and deny these babies):

1. University is finishing up - all that's left is exams, and are they REALLY that hard? (guaranteed you spend more time researching for papers, writing papers, editing papers, and finishing up your course work then you do studying)
2. The days are getting longer - the sun is barely down at 8pm, giving you much more time after school/work to enjoy outsideage
3. The summer outdoor concert series line-ups are announced
4. It's warm enough to go out without a jacket and enjoy the outdoors, before the smog alerts, sweltering humid heat that makes your clothes stick to you, etc., etc., generally making it impossible to do anything productive.
5. Tax Return Time - Whole loads of cash money in my hand. The myriad of ways I could enjoy it dance like sugar plums in my head.
   
6. My birthday! - That's right y'all. May 17th, part of the May 2-4 weekend in Canada. A looong weekend of BBQs, Drinking, Fireworks, etc. in the spirit of spring and the 22nd year of my birth. Mark it on your calendars.

By the way (btw - there's another, not so difficult one), May is definitely the best month of the year to have your birthday. For all the reasons listed above, and additionally,

1. Not too close or too far from Christmas - if you have your birthday too close to Christmas, you often get jipped out of presents/celebrations. Right in the middle of the year, people have paid off their christmas credit debt and are in the giving/celebrating mood as the winter lifts and the warm weather sets in (sounds greedy, but it's true!).
2. May 2-4 weekend: Since my birthday always falls directly on or around Victoria Day Weekend, my parents told me when I was young that they were in celebration of my birthday. I still choose to believe it to this day.
3. You (most likely) get to be a Taurus: Best zodiac sign by far. Stubborn, loyal, and a hell of a good appreciator for the finer things in life. Don't I know it. (If you are born after May 22, you're a Gemini. God help you).
   

For these reasons, Spring and May bordering on the horizon have made me a very happy person. Now if only I could get myself a better job and I don't think I could be any happier...for now. :)

Easter for the Mindboggled

Since I'm bollox deep in essays and haven't slept in something over 30 hours at this point, I'm merely going to share something someone wrote and totally appropriate it as my own. Happy Easter!

Easter this year is: Sunday March 23, 2008

As you may know, Easter is always the 1st Sunday after the 1st full moon after the Spring Equinox (which is March 20).

This dating of Easter is based on the lunar calendar that Hebrew people used to identify Passover, which is why it moves around on our Roman calendar.

A couple more things you might be interested in!

Based on the above, Easter can actually be one day earlier (March 22) but that is pretty rare.

This year is the earliest Easter any of us will ever see the rest of our lives! And only the most elderly of our population (aged 95 or more) have ever seen it this early. And none of us have ever -- or will ever -- see it a day earlier! Here are the facts:

The next time Easter will be this early (March 23) will be the year 2228 (220 years from now). The last time it was this early was 1913 (so if you're 95 or older, you are the only ones that were around for that!)

The next time it will be a day earlier (March 22), will be in the year 2285 (277 years from now). The last time it was on March 22 was 1818.

So, no one alive today has or will ever see it any earlier than this year!

ENJOY THE UNIQUENESS OF THIS SPECIAL DAY AND THIS LITTLE PIECE OF HISTORY!

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Never was there said a truer word. Erin Go Bragh! Happy St. Patrick's Day!

What it Means to be a Torontonian - The Urban Dictionary Definition

I came across this in my travels today and I simply had to share. Any Torontonian will definitely get a kick out of this, in that "it's-funny-'cause-it's-true" kinda way:


Torontonian

noun.

1. A person who resides in Toronto, Ontario, Canada.

2. A gracious and tolerant sort of guy or gal who listens with Herculean patience and nothing but a sad sigh now and then as every ill-educated sheep-shagger, penniless cod-kisser, sexually confused lumberjack and soulless oil tycoon befouling the rest of the country badmouths him tirelessly because they don't have half the cool shit that he does.

3. A person who starts feeling suicidal every year around the time of the Stanley Cup playoffs.

4. Someone who pays fully half of their income in taxes so that a bunch of miserable ingrates living in shacks can spend half the year on the dole, scratching their Molson muscles and bitching about how much they hate Torontonians.

5. A person who can find everything she needs within a twenty-minute walk or bike-ride from her front door.

6. A resident of the 416 area code, but mercifully not of the 905.

7. Someone who is too polite to tell his best friend, who lives in Vancouver, that, 'No, frankly I really don't wish I lived in Vancouver. Not everyone on the whole fucking planet wants to live in Vancouver, for Christ's sake. Besides, your whole goddamned drug-infested city's going to slide into the ocean some day, be it global warming, act of heavenly retribution, or one tremendous motherfucking earthquake. So there.'

Albertan: Torontonians are a bunch of Jesus-hating faggots. We should separate from Canada to get away from them.

Quebecker: Torontonians are a bunch of money-hungry conservatives. We should separate from Canada to get away from them.

Newfoundlander: Torontonians are a bunch of self-centred arses. We should separate from Canada to get away from them

Torontonian: I wish all those fucking leeches would separate from Canada so that I wouldn't have to pay for all their goddamned cigarettes and health care any more.

idespair

Today my MP3 player played its last song. It passed into technological oblivion at approximately 4:30 pm EST when it refused to move from the welcome screen into the main menu, and is now caught in an eternal cycle of flashing "SanDisk" and "Goodbye" - this is what MP3 player's hell must look like.

I have decided that after many years of flash-based players and little to no space (two years ago having 2GB of space was considered generous), I'm going to try an ipod classic 80GB. However, with school coming to an end and no relief from papers and exams in sight and therefore hardly any shifts at my store (which, btw, is so desperately bankrupt head office has predicted we won't be open by the end of April), which leaves me too financially unstable to purchase said item.

Which leaves me in a state of desperation - no music to walk to, public transit to, exercise to, drive to, etc. etc. well, just the thought makes me shake in my boots.

Is there anything anyone would like to buy from me? Pretty please????

Snowpidity

I found that a lot of my posts lately have been drawing back to the topic of weather. But with the winter we've had here in Toronto, do you blame me? One thing I can't help but commenting on is the way people in the city, regardless of age, gender, race, or any other difference you can think of, collectively act during winter storms and bad weather.

I was actually excited for this winter storm that is currently upon us simply for the fact that I'm up to my ears in assignments, final papers and impending exams and know that I literally need every hour, minute and second I can get to work on assignments. When I heard there was to be X amount of centimeters dropped overnight and into Saturday I was overjoyed since I had to work this morning and into the afternoon, and a deserted store = time for readings. While the store was much more deserted than usual, I was shocked and almost disturbed at the amount of people who did come in. And not so much over the act of coming to a pharmacy/grocery store, but rather for why and what they were buying.

For example, a man faced trechourous roads and an icy, unplowed bridge (our store is is situated just over the railway tracks) with cars sliding all over the road and buses stalling, unable to get up and though, to drop of two shirts to be laundered at our dry cleaning service. Laundered mind you, soap and water, like what your washing machine does at home.

Another came in to buy a cartload of Dr. Pepper and nothing else. Just Dr. Pepper. I watched him struggle to get the cart though the snow and to his car. 10 minutes later, he dragged the cart though the snow to buy another cartload. Did anyone fail to tell me the Dr. Pepper has excellent snow and ice melting properties?

Earth Hour 2008 - Think Globally, Act Globally

So it's officially one month until the world turns off its lights for 1 hour in awareness for energy consumption and global warming. I first heard about this amazing event in December. Last year, Sydney Australia turned off all unnecessary lighting and appliances (homes, office buildings, commercial buildings, billboards, etc.) for one hour. The energy and carbon emissions saved from that one hour was equivalent to taking thousands of cars off the road for one day. This year, cities from all over the world, including 35 alone in Canada (Canada is, so far, the country with the largest amount of confirmed cities), will be participating on March 29th, 2008, by turning out all unnecessary lighting and appliances for one hour, between 8 and 9 pm.

Of course there will be the skeptics and nay-sayers that will quickly jump on the idea and try to slit its throat. Yes , I understand that one hour can hardly change the world and stop the negative effects of global warming. But the event is about awareness, to make each and everyone of us understand just how much wasted energy we consume each and every day which is completely unnecessary. I am confident that every step taken to raise awareness will drive the point home to the extent where it can no longer be ignored.

Once you know something you can't un-know it. You can just chose to be ignorant and part of the problem. Or you can do something about it.

Many cities across the world are organizing public events for Earth Hour. Here in Toronto, Nathan Phillip Square will be hosting an event. I urge everyone to participate and spread the word to others.

For more information, please go to:
www.earthhour.org
www.wwf.com

Divine Inspiration of a Drunken Dead Man

I was walking home from work and realized the night sky was overwhelmingly beautiful. Last night's clear skies made for a perfect view of the lunar eclipse, and tonight the full moon shone brighter than I think I've ever seen it, encompassed on each side by Saturn and the brightest star in the Leo constellation.

As I was walking, I realized that in winter, the clearest most beautiful nights are often the most frigid. Something to ponder...

I was also reminded strangely of my favourite poem, by my favourite poet, Irish Romantic Thomas Moore. I thought I would share his words on this crisp and cold winter's night.

OH! think not my spirits are always as light,

And as free from a pang as they seem to you now,

Nor expect that the heart-beaming smile of to-night

Will return with to-morrow to brighten my brow.

No: -- life is a waste of wearisome hours,

Which seldom the rose of enjoyment adorns;

And the heart that is soonest awake to the flowers,

Is always the first to be touch'd by the thorns.

But send round the bowl, and be happy awhile --

May we never meet worse, in our pilgrimage here,

Than the tear that enjoyment may gild with a smile,

And the smile that compassion can turn to a tear.

The thread of our life would be dark, Heaven knows

If it were not with friendship and love intertwined;

And I care not how soon I may sink to repose,

When these blessing shall cease to be dear to my mind.

But they who have loved the fondest, the purest,

Too often have wept o'er the dream they believed;

And the heart that has slumber'd in friendship securest

Is happy indeed if 'twas never deceived.

But send round the bowl; while a relic of truth

Is in man or in woman, this prayer shall be mine, --

That the sunshine of love may illumine our youth,

And the moonlight of friendship console our decline.

The Stupidity of the Storm

Sometimes I see things happening in this city that I really can't even begin to understand. The recent snow removal initiatives that the City of Toronto are attempting to implement after several major winter storms are quite possibly the most poorly thought through initiatives I have ever seen.

Yesterday I was on my way home from school on the 60 bus that runs along Steeles West from the University. I was happy because class was ending early and I was able to get on the bus around 4:15, about 45 minutes before the road would become a war zone due to rush hour. That amount of time should have gotten me off the bus and home before 5 pm. I was blissfully unaware, listening to my MP3 player and catching up on some readings when I realized the bus had slowed to a near crawl, and we were only a few blocks onto Steeles. The bus window was clouded over with condensation and dirt, making it nearly impossible to see out, and was packed so tightly with people I had no ability to see the road or what the hold up may have been.

My usual ride takes between, from start to finish, about 30 - 45 minutes. At about 5:30 yesterday, an hour and 15 minutes after departing from the University Commons, I was still sitting on a bus that would move a few feet every 1 - 2 minutes, only to come to a dead stop once again. Dozens of probable causes ran though my mind, from a simple stalled call in the middle lane to a horrible car pile-up, or a pedestrian being hit (especially during rush hour when people who usually drive like maniacs with horseblinders on step it up to a whole other level of insanity). Finally, after 1 hour and 45 minutes, I decided to suck it up and get out at the next stop (I still had no idea where I was or how far I was going to have to walk). After pushing through a whole mess of people and finding myself about 5 blocks from my stop, I went out onto the sidewalk and noticed that all three lanes of traffic going east were blocked off by police cars and barricades. I walked a little further and saw huge dumptrucks and front loader machines scooping up the snowbanks from the side of the road.

A blocked section of road from 1 intersection to the next caused the time of my commute to more than double, and stopped rush hour traffic in a city of over 2 million people in all four directions for near kilometers. All so a few banks of snow could be removed.

Are you kidding me Toronto?

I couldn't figure out why removing snowbanks that had already been innocently sitting there for weeks needed to be removed so promptly, and why this had to be done on a major artery of traffic at the heart of the rush hour commute, which the City very well knew would be occurring at the time of the procedure. So I looked into it, figuring there must be something I'm missing. Here's an excerpt of an article I found in the Toronto Star today:

Major snowfalls this month, combined with a thaw and freeze, have created icy snowbanks that spill outward and impede traffic flow.

Crews worked through the weekend removing crusted snow from major downtown routes, as well as the Gardiner, Don Valley and Allen expressways.

"The concern is that people aren't able to park on side streets because of the amount of snow," says Noehammer. "And now, with the very cold temperatures, it's frozen into a hard, icy mass."

Crews have to break up the snowbanks and push the snow into the road so it can be scooped up into dump trucks.

On some major streets, the city used massive snowblowers to shave down banks.

This "makes space for additional snow to be stored in the next storm," says Noehammer.

To most people, the sooty white piles between a sidewalk and road are just snowbanks.
But to the city, those areas are storage spaces for snow – and they must, according to policy, get whittled down once they reach a height of 30 centimetres.

Once again, ARE YOU KIDDING ME? You're doing this to make the sidewalks more accessible? You mean, the same sidewalks that have over the past few days become treacherous sheets of thick, uneven ice that haven't been treated with a speck of salt or sand, most likely because you are too busy removing "harmful" snowbanks that will "impede traffic". I don't know about you, but somehow I think shutting down large sections of major roads during peak traffic periods is going to impede traffic and be a lot more dangerous for driving that a few pieces of snow or ice falling into the road from snowbanks. Here's an idea - make it illegal to park on the sidestreets during the winter if you're concerned about snow removal and impeding traffic. It's called a garage, a driveway, or a parking lot. There's hundreds all over the city - and it will boost the economy at the same time. Instead of spending 20 million to remove snowbanks, we can benefit of the cheapness of drivers who don't want to pay to park their vehicles, and would rather clog up the neighborhoods of others.

P.S. I'm supposed to be in class right now. Steeles is still shut down, and I couldn't even get to my bus stop to even try and get on a bus going in the direction of the university. The sound of ear piercing honking is still ringing in my ear, and who knows when/if I'll be able to attend classes again. Who wants to bet I'll be reimbursed the cost of my missed class by the city? Yeah right.

Oh. It is Love.

You know it's love when a wireless internet router is your Valentine's Day gift, and it's one of the most thoughtful Valentine's gifts you've ever recieved.

In other news, I've been pondering a heated dilemma that's been plaguing humankind for as long as humans have existed. I believe I have come up with a draw between forces. It's possibly the greatest inovation since Hot Pockets - Humans version 2.0: the link between the Evolution Theory and the Higher Power Creation theory. Just like computer programmers, God introduced humans in stages, versions if you will. Maybe a little beta testing before the final grand introduction to the public. Ask the anthopologists for the exact number, but I'm sure we'd be somewhere around version 2359086.2. Or you know, whatever.


Karen fact number 233.5: I have a guilty pleasure in monster trucking and all machines that make big noises and tend to light on fire from time to time. There's a little Middle America in all of us, I like to think. Hence my masterpiece, in all it's copyright-tastic glory:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDOJrPercE8

Now I must go sip my mimosa and cuss out random faceless Internet players on Guitar Hero. Rock on my friends, rock on.

Double Standard: Round 2

"[In the 1950's] daughters were instilled with different fears from those visited upon their male siblings. Occasional rhetoric condemned tomboys, but the real anxeity was not loss of sexual identity but loss of sexual control. Society put the burden of sexual purity on the female. Boys were expected to initiate, and the girl was suppose to decide what was appropriate. The boys were suppose to prove they were men, and the girls had to prove they were respectable. This belief was at the heart of the famous double standard."

- Douglas Owram, Born at the Right Time

It's over 50 years later, and this nasty injustice is still deeply engrained in the foundations of gender roles in contemporary society. Perhaps not entirely so cut and dry in terms of direct instruction by parents, teachers, and other authority, double standards of sexuality are still perpetuated to children starting at alarmingly young ages (think "boys play with G.I. Joes, and girls play with Barbie". Heaven forbid if one picks up the other). Although we have a term for it, can understand the inequality, and have "Girl Power" in the form of the Spice Girls, and groups like Destiny's Child hollering "I'm a survivor!" on our radios, we still can't get over or around it.

And when I say we, I mean us girls, because we're the ones getting the short end of the stick on this one. I hate to say it, but newest revelation is not going to make any advances in helping us out. So hold on to your garters girls, because I've discovered that even when you think you're nice and safe in your warm and fuzzy long-term relationship, you're only just beginning.

I've been with my boyfriend for years now, and I've noticed a strong and constant trend - nearly every girl that he knows/is friends with dislikes me, whether she's met me or not. Already, this is grounds for problems. What also doesn't help is that most of my boyfriend's friends are girls. Likewise, most of my friends tend to be guys (for this reason among others, I usually can't stand girls and just get along with guys better. Simply put, guys = less bull.). However there is a huge difference in our friends, as my guy friends have no problem with Justin. In fact, we often all hang out together and they have generally nothing to say but good things about him and our relationship.

My boyfriend gets super jealous and moody when guys call me or I make plans to go out with them. I've made concious efforts to say "hey, babe, let's all go out together", even changing days and times to correspond to his schedule. While he was in Whistler last year with drunk girls coming into his bedroom and mouthing off to me via cell phone at midnight, I was waiting patiently (and faithfully!) for his 5 month trip to end and return him to me. But lets get to the point at hand - my boyfriend knows my guy friends, and pretty well may I add. If he hasn't directly met them, he's heard me tell him pretty much everything there is to know - who he is, where me met, where we chill, what we do, etc. However, my boyfriend often gets calls on his cell phone from "Sarah" or "Nadia" or "Jessica" or God knows who else - girls names I've never heard of. He apparently thinks it's ok for him to say "I'm going out to dinner" and not specify with who or where. When his girlfriends have directly insulted me in front of him for little to no reason other than I exist, he's asked me "why won't you give her a chance?".

This is offically a whole other level of double standard. Perhaps this should be called the relationship double standard - once you think you're out of hot water, you realize you've just crawled into a bigger pot. I don't know about you, but I think I'm done being the wilting flower, and I think it may be time to fight fire with fire. Who's with me??

Running of the Books

For York students, such as myself, tomorrow kicks of the annual week of reading, AKA Reading Week. While many students with more money than brains decide to spend the week flouncing around tropical climates whilst beating their organs relentlessly with alcohol and substances, others actually take the time off to (gasp!) catch up on their readings and quell the anxiety attacks lurking in the cockles of their hearts.

As I'm sure you've already guessed, I'm of the latter group mentioned. Even if I did have the money to go on some sort of spring break vacation (and after four years of university, I still cannot for the life of me figure out how these kids can go on vacations and still afford tuition, books, rent - you know, general survival and the like. I enjoy eating and having a roof over my head, so Mexico just doesn't fit into the equation at the moment), I'd be holed up in my hotel room writing papers and reading material from the 3 classes I've already fallen horribly behind in despite by best efforts. I've quickly discovered that it's very hard to sit in your study and read modernist poetry and pages about the lives of the Babyboom generation when you can just imagine the sun, sand and/or snow (whatever floats your boat) that many of your peers are enjoying at that same moment. So, to somewhat remedy the situation, I booked off an entire weekend (something I haven't enjoyed since the end of August) from my work, and am in the process of planning a somewhat exciting and leisurely weekend. I'm thinking skiing....that's about as far as my overworked mind can get at this point. But I've still got some time. Any ideas anyone?

Happy reading week! And remember: read responsibly.

Drive-By Wisdom

People who know me and know me well are aware that I'm an incredibly firm believer in a higher power and the human subconscious' ability to stay closely connected to that power at all times, regardless of our conscious knowledge of this connection. I believe in fate and reincarnation, and that this life each and everyone of us is living has been planned out to the last detail and that there are no such thing as coincidences, just instances of experience where we are pushed back onto our life path when we deviate, or alternatively, a little vote of confidence that we are doing the right thing when we may be questioning ourselves.

So now that half of you reading this probably think I'm a crazy person (although I've read dozens of books on the subject, and there's just too much solid proof through documented individual human experience alone that I still can't believe there are people out there ignorant enough, and ignorance is what it is, to believe otherwise), I will move on.

Sometimes it's just funny where some of these affirmations come from. The past couple weeks I've been re-evaluating my belief in karma (that "goes-around, comes-around" belief) especially after my purse got stolen (which occurred after nearly a dozen occasions where I've found purses, wallets, and credit cards at my store and immediately called banks and tracked down phone numbers to alert the person who lost it). That mantra "nice guys finish last" has been repeating itself in my head as of late, especially when I see truly nice and kind people taken advantage of over and over again (and of which I can't only blame others, as it's happened to me on occasion where I don't stick up for myself as I should. But that's very rare now - luckily I think that that aspect of my life is on the decline, and good riddance!). Lately in the recent past, there have been occasions where sums of money have presented themselves of which were easily accessible and of which no one would have noticed missing. And if so, could have easily been passed off on someone else who would get a slap on the wrist if nothing else. The temptation was great, especially when the money was coming from a source largely unappreciative of my contributions (we'll just keep the details at that!). After some deliberation, I decided that regardless of all this, and my failing faith in karma, I didn't take the money.

Yesterday when I was at work, I went on cash for a few minutes to take over a girl who needed a break. I was on for less than two minutes when an old man came up with his milk and eggs. Nothing out of the ordinary, and he didn't say much past a "hi, nice day" while I was checking his purchase out. He began to walk away, was half way out of the door, when he came back, looked me in the eyes and said something to the extent of: "Always be a good person. As a good person, you'll be kicked in the teeth time and time again. But you're beautiful and good, and when it comes down to it, you'll be the one who comes out on top." And with that, he simply walked away.

I thought it was strange at the time, but later that night when I was thinking back on it, I realized it was exactly that which I needed to hear. An affirmation of my continued faith in a world gone bad. Now I'm not saying it was an angel sent from God, but I definitely think it wasn't a coincidence. Like I said, I don't believe in coincidences.

Snow Day!!!

I don't mean to scare you, but I believe the apocalypse may be upon us: York University has canceled today's classes, and all is likely to crumble with it. In my four years of attending York, and through many a terrible storm, York has often been the only school (and often institution in general) to keep its doors open and classes running in a hundred mile radias. I am actually afraid to even look outside for fear of nuclear warfare or the 4 horses descending upon us.

So instead I'm going to tuck myself away in my bed and get caught up on the wonderful world of 20th Century Canadian History. If the country exists after today, I figure it will be worthwhile...

Happy snow day!

I'm Taking it Back

I've really gotten into this blogging thing since I started a few months back. It's incredibly liberating to be able to say what I think and feel and not have a scary face in front of mine with an even scarier brain hiding behind that; one of which is going over my words and churning out reactions that I can't possibly know or hear. A blog is one big blank non-judgmental canvas that allows me to operate in full-blown stealth mode: if I can't see you, you're not there. De-lightful!

(No but seriously, I would love if someone commented on my page. If I could evoke some sort of discussion or even make someone's day with my incessant ramblings, I would be happy. Please love me!)

I used to write weekly articles for this website called TOstudent.com, 2 or 3 summers ago. I remember being really stoked when I got picked out of a pool of other would-be journalists for the summer. Only draw-back: it was entirely voluntarily, not a dollar to be made. But I was promised media passes to concerts, restaurants, etc., and it would look bright and shiny in the largely empty volunteer section of my resume. I think I lasted 2 months - after which I hadn't been given a single media pass for any concert, or restaurant, or even a cheap movie on Toonie Tuesdays at the Rainbow Theatre. So I told them to vamoose.

So I found out the site has become Citystudent.com, and they still have my articles listed even though they totally don't deserve them, those slave-driving deceptive bastards. So I'm taking it back.

Here's one of my favourites from my days of being an oh-so-rebellious suburban pop-punk highschooler:

Concert Etiquette – A Collection of Do’s, Don’ts and Pet Peeves for the Common Concert Goer

By Karen Gore

Any fan of any genre of music will most likely agree that concerts are one of the most amazing ways to experience music. A live show offers so much more than your stereo or MP3 player: a decorated venue with expensive sound equipment that delivers ear pounding, body rocking sound. Light and visual effects that take the music to new heights, and of course a crowd of excited, screaming fans that pump pounds of energy into the intense atmosphere that swallows you. Oh, and don’t forget your favourite artist mere metres away belting out your favourite tunes.

A concert is must for any music fan to experience their favourite artist, group or band at a new level. While it is difficult to imagine anything being able to ruin such an incredible experience, the actions of the people who are sharing it right along side you can alter it drastically, even by minor actions. It could be anyone: the stage crew, the security guards, the guy moshing at the front of the crowd, the girl singing a few rows away, or even your best friend standing beside you. It doesn’t take much, but soon you might find that instead of concentrating on the performance, you’re silently plotting revenge on the guy elbowing you in the back, or the people who just pushed their way in front of you.

The following is a short list of common concert etiquette pitfalls and how to avoid them. They’re a compilation of personal experiences, and friend-of-a-friend stories collected over the past few years. If you have ever been to a concert, I guarantee you will have experienced at least a few of these delightful occurrences. Let’s start at the beginning of any concert: standing in line.

1. Budding the Line. This is particularly directed toward general admission shows where there are no seats (i.e. standing room), or no designated seating area indicated on the ticket - so basically, its first come, first served. If you want to be as close to the artist(s) as possible, getting in line up to a few hours early is a great idea. Some fans will stand out in any weather – blistering hot, freezing cold (I’ve stood in line for concerts in -27 Celsius weather for four hours just to get a good spot), rain, snow, earthquake, hurricane, whatever – just to insure they’ll be in a prime spot for the show. Then what happens? You’ll get other fans coming up to the line just as the doors are opening. Often they’ll join their friends in line (personally, I’d tell ‘em to get to the back of the line and wait like everyone else, but that’s just me!), or try and blend into the line hoping no one will notice that they weren’t there before. C’mon! I know this sounds tempting, and might provide some sort of sick pleasure or adrenaline rush that all these suckers were braving the elements for hours while you relaxed somewhere. Just imagine how you would feel if you were in the opposite situation. Karma, baby.

2. Trying to Start Mosh Pits – when the concert hasn’t started. This applies mostly (while, actually entirely), to standing room concerts. It’s particularly bad when a concert is sold out and the venue plays the sardine game – trying to see how many people they can pack into a tiny space. When you’re surrounded on all sides by hundreds of sweaty, excited people, and packed so tightly you can’t move an inch without grabbing a miscellaneous body part of another crowd member, it’s easy for one single person’s movement to affect the whole crowd. Some people seem to think that its fun to start pushing other crowd members and trying to start a semi-mosh pit, while watching a hundred people fall backward into each other. Personally, falling under the feet of a crowd of up to 1000 or 2000 people doesn’t sound like fun to me. Neither does trying to keep my balance while falling onto other sweaty, smelly concert-goers in the process. So cut it out.

3. Pushing Unwilling Crowd Members into Mosh Pits. Speaking of mosh pits, not everyone enjoys them. It’s not that I’m against them at all. In fact, it’s often impossible to resist the urge to mosh when that certain song begins to play. However, some crowd members think that everyone should join them in the pit, or maybe they just get into it a little too much. Whatever it is that drives them, some people just love to push others into the pit. Ok, reality check – some people don’t like to run into other people as hard and fast as they can while kicking and throwing their arms around all recklessly-like. And hey, I don’t blame them! So respect the people at the edge of the pit. Chances are, if they’re not going in on their own, they really don’t want or need your help.

4. Standing in Front of People Shorter Than You. I must admit, this isn’t always avoidable. Everyone at a concert is obviously going to be of various heights, and especially when there are no seats, it’s almost impossible to avoid standing in front of someone who is shorter than you. But coming from a person who’s a mere 5 foot, 3 inches, I’ve seen the worst of it. I’ve had people at least a foot taller than me stand directly in front of me, so that both their head and shoulders manage to encompass the entire stage. It’s not like they don’t know I’m there – many have turned around to speak to their friends or just to have a look at the crowd and are completely aware that half the audience behind them are staring at nothing but their back. The decent thing to do would be to offer the shorter person (or persons) directly behind you a spot in front of you. Hey, news flash - they’re shorter than you! It’s not like they’re going to block your view. So respect others and be aware of those behind you, especially if you’re above average height.

5. Guys Who Take Their Shirt Off. Note: this is BAD. Everyone gets hot and sweaty at concerts, it’s enviable. While it may seem like a great idea to take your shirt off, everyone else around you has to suffer. I don’t think anyone enjoys feeling the sweaty, dripping skin of a fellow fan rubbing up against them. This is especially true when the person can’t avoid the contact – i.e. in a mosh pit or when someone’s body surfing. Oh yeah, and let’s not forget two little words – back acne (or bacne, if you will).

6. Wild/Uncontrolled Hair. This one is directed more toward the girls, although it applies to guys with long hair as well. Not everyone prefers to tie their hair back; however, at a concert where you are just mere centimetres away from your fellow audience member, it’s a must. Hair gets sweaty just as fast as your body does. It gets sticky and clumps together, and becomes a pretty powerful weapon when it whips around as you move. You can imagine how annoying (not to mention disgusting) it would be if someone’s hair constantly hit you in the face, flung sweat at over you, and got stuck to your skin and clothing constantly. This is something easily fixed – put it up! Put it in a ponytail or a bun: it only takes a few seconds and you can save someone a lot of discomfort!

7. Wild Dancing. It’s easy to lose control when you’re favourite band/group/artist is playing a live show for you, but remember – you’re not the only one there. It’s ok to get crazy and jump around; it pumps up the energy of the crowd and lets the performers know you’re having a good time. However, it’s important to make sure you’re not getting into anyone’s “space”, and it’s essential to make sure you’re not hitting them or throwing yourself in front of their face. Flailing arms and elbows are really annoying and can really hurt!

8. Holding up Signs. This is got to be one of my biggest pet peeves when it comes to concerts. I hate to say it, but we all know it’s mainly the pre-teen-screaming-frenzy-of-girls that have love affairs with the members of the band, and insist on making a twelve-foot sign that says something along the lines of “I love you ‘insert boyishly-handsome band member here’”. Of course, it will be you that always ends up sitting/standing directly behind the pre-teen-screaming-frenzy, and can’t see a thing for over half the concert. Add into the equation high-pitched screaming, and you’ve got one really distracting situation. It would be a miracle if someone could convince these people that the signs really aren’t necessary, and frankly, it’s very improbable that the band member can even see it in the first place. Or even if they can, I doubt they need it flashed in their face more than once. So what more can I say then JUST DON’T DO IT!

So there it is. My collection of the do’s and don’ts of the concert world. I hope this article has enlightened you and brought to your attention some things you may have never considered in the past. Even if you disagree with some (or even all) of my arguments, I hope my message is clear - because when it boils down to it, respect is the ultimate thing that will make or break an experience. Next time you’re at a concert, take some of the things I mentioned into consideration and I promise you and those around you will have a much better time.

Working for the Weekend - Literally

I'm already irritated enough just turning on my computer today. It's taken well over 10 minutes to get to this page due to the "does-not-compute" ness of my five-year-old computer. And that virus program update that starts up automatically in the "background" so as not to disturb user functions bungs up my computer for about 5 extra minutes so every small click of the mouse is equivalent to an attempt to access the entirety of the Encyclopedia Britannica. Boo. Technology advances too fast for the poor.

I'm becoming ever-more envious of those students who have money fed to them through a tube by their parents, as every weekend I seem to get progressively longer and shittier shifts at work. I've become the antithesis of most students and regular Joes who count down the days till Friday. Friday in my little world is the second most dreaded day of the week, as it means only a few short hours until waking up at some God awful hour, standing on my feet all day, being talked down to and lectured by customers, then going home, eating and sleeping just to do it all again the next day. Oh - and the most dreaded day - Sunday at work, 9 and a half hours of craptacular retail enslavement.

I'm considering quitting by March, leaving myself open for studying and paper writing and all the readings I haven't been able to catch up on. The problem is, I like things. I like to own things. I like to come into my space and see things, feel and touch them, use them and dispose of them as I please. I've recently discovered the sad truth that I truly am the definition of a quote, unquote, Consumer Whore. Sometimes I think I could do something really great and selfless, like convince a friend that life is worth living, or organize a group of people to create a significant reaction felt around the world, cure some sort of disease by accident like the Penicillan men, and still my life would feel empty and unfulfilled if I didn't have tangible processions to prove that I've lived. This seriously conflicts with my desire to get the hell out of the living arrangements I've kept for the last 13 years of my life and out of the unrelenting talons of my mother's control, ideally out of the suburbs altogether. I need to a trip, no where too far or too exotic, just enough to throughly convince me, if only for a few fleeting moments, that this life I live and the conditions that keep me chained in one place no longer exist.

It all comes down to money in the end. The sad truth rears its head once again. And so another weekend from hell begins.

Death of Celebrity

I was shocked, and sadly not-so-shocked a few moments ago when I turned on my computer and logged on to my daily guilty pleasure, pinkisthenewblog.com. The headline for today's post read "No Joke, Heath Ledger is Dead!". At only 28 years old, yet another young and talented celebrity has taken his own life.

What is most sad is what I find in myself - the shock and disbelief lingers no longer than a few minutes. With the announcement of anyone's untimely demise, acceptance should be days, weeks, or even months or years ahead as the natural grief cycle takes its course. Yes, granted we do not know this person personally, but yet anyone's death at such a young age with such a promising life ahead is, and should be, tragic. When it becomes all too commonplace to see and hear "so-and-so has died of a suspected overdose/suicide", especially in the world of celebrity, should we not turn the lens on ourselves??

We as a society idolize the lives of the famous. It's a life of glamour, luxury and pomp, traveling the world and everyone knowing your face and your name. And yet from the golden pedestal, more and more young celebrities fall. I'm beginning to wonder if its our fault for placing too much stress on the famous, disallowing any fault or misjudgment or any amount of privacy. Or for not taking their problems or the warning signs seriously enough. Take Owen Wilson for example. In August, he attempted suicide and survived the ordeal. Since then, gossip magazines have all but forgotten the mishap, yet have followed closely his jetset life and his relationships with various women. Did no one - photographer, writer, editor, or reader - stop to think "wait a minute, what's wrong with this picture? Did this man get the help he requires? Is his head-first dive back into the life of celebrity going to lead him back to a dangerous position? Should we be photographing his sucking face, giving him space, or encouraging him to seek help?"

We can see it plainly enough in characters such as Britney Spears and Amy Winehouse, who are clearly on a warpath to self-destruction and disparately need psychiatric help. And yet all we give them is even more cameras in their faces and a whole lot of money to newspapers and magazines who only profit from such cries for help. The saddest part is those who suffer in silence, such as Heath Ledger who always seemed to have a smile for his fans. Although then again, we'll never understand the plans and purpose we each have for our lives, and so what can any of us do but to try to help and better ourselves, of not for ourselves, at least for the benefit of others.

Cow Tipping

It's a pretty simple equation in my mind, apparently more complex in other's. I've never really been able to wrap my head around it - when you go to a bar, the person behind the bar being paid to serve you takes your order, takes 2.7 seconds to crack a bottle or pour liquid into a glass, charges you an astronomical amount for what you're getting, and then on top of that, expects you to give him/her a tip. That which I question is, what have you, the bartender, done in that 2.7 seconds that warrants my gift of generosity? Have you gone above and beyond your duties? No. Have you exerted yourself in any commendable manner? Hardly. The only thing I could possibly fathom that would warrant deserving a tip is if said bartender has made a particularly difficult drink, quickly and efficiently served you despite a packed bar, or served a group many drinks at once. However, at 10:30 pm when the bar is empty and I've ordered a rye and ginger and a beer, I hardly see any category of tip requirements being met.

So when I get told "Next time you order a round, go to the other bartender Kenny, he'll be your best friend" with attitude and an eye roll from some dumb blonde who has voluntarily chosen the job of bartender, and is no doubt aware of the set pay rate and the job requirements, I think I was justifiably pissed. If you have to ask for a tip, chances are you didn't deserve one in the first place. And if you think you'll be tipped after being rude and insulting to your customer, think again. Sometimes I really just don't get people. And like the Care Bear Caring Meter, my faith in humanity dips even lower on the scale.

P.S. Please don't get me wrong - I tip wait staff and cab drivers and people in customer service sectors who often go above and beyond their duties. However, I don't think it's mandatory and will not tip, or will otherwise tip significantly less, when I see little effort put into the job at hand. What I can't stand to see is people who tip automatically or don't change the tip according to the quality of work. This is just feeding the fire, making workers think they don't have to actually work for the generosity of their patrons. In fact, they come to expect a tip, hence Brainless Betty behind the counter at Neutral Saturday night. Why do we shake our heads when we see a child having a temper tantrum in a shopping mall, when that child is rewarded for his or her actions by receiving the candy or item that he or she was crying over? Yet, we do not find it problematic to tip customer service employees who are rude/careless/lazy, etc., and who are likely just as undeserving as that spoiled child? Isn't it enough that we're frequenting their establishment, keeping them in a job in the first place? Like I said before, if you don't like your job and the set payrate, then get another. It's not like there isn't any.



And for that matter, how come I never gotten a tip? I work in customer service - behind the till or on the floor of a retail store. I consistently go out of my way to help customers find what they're looking for, make calls to suppliers and bother managers on their lunch break to answer customer concerns. Do you think I've ever gotten a tip? Nor do I expect one - and nor should anyone of any position. So if you do get a tip, be thankful. And if not, work harder and realize that your customers probably work just as hard, if not harder, for their money than you.

Damn the Ignorant, Not the Institution

York University has been in the news a lot since the summer, many detailing seperate incidents of harrassment and assault. The details of each incident have been kept deliberately vauge, understandably so to protect the identity of the victims. Many are quick to blame York's security team for the crimes occuring on campus. However, many are unaware that this year alone York has spent over 3 million dollars on its CCTV network and increased sercurity presense (CTV News, Jan. 16/08), and there is barely an inch of campus that isn't covered under the watchful eye of security guards 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. The only places, however, that are not guarded by cameras and regular security presense is in an area where privacy is expected: the residence.

I've personally never stayed in a residence before. Coming from a lower-middle class family, and being in such close proximity to several university campuses, I've had no need. However, I've stayed with friends at Western, at York, and even in dorm-style staff residences with my boyfriend when he was in Whistler B.C. A common trend I've seen among all was the tendancy to leave dorm doors open - not just unlocked, but physically open, while my friends would work, play, or even leave the room entirely for several minutes or hours. I'm an only child and have always lived on my own, and so I found this behaviour curious. The answer to my question was "it's anti-social to close your doors". My response to that is, is it anti-social to protect your belongings and your personal safety? Am I being anti-social when I lock my door when I sleep, when I step out, or even when I'm inside to protect myself? What if a robber or a rapist wants to stop by? I really wouldn't want to offend.

I barely trust my things and my privacy in my own home, never mind in a hall full of strangers or people you believe you "know". Not to mention that who knows who or what kind of people your hall mates or building mates are bringing into your living space. It gets under my skin when I hear people play the victim, especially when they pass the buck to an institution that does what it can to protect its population. However, one must realize that public safety can only go so far, and if one is not adamant about working to ensure one's own safety, how can they expect to be safe 100% of the time?

News flash - the world is a terrible place, and there are millions of people out there who will do what they will, for whatever sick or desparate reason, to take advantage of you. If you choose to walk down dark alleys at night, leave your door open to whomever so chooses to enter, or put yourself into situations where you safety may be compromised, you have no one to blame but yourself for letting others take advantage of you.

How many incidents will it take before women realize that they cannot safely travel alone? For that matter, when will men realize they're not exempt from being a victim of crime? It's not fair, but it's a fact of life. Go with a buddy, take a self-defense class, carry a cell phone or whistle. Be aware of who your friends are - even those who you trust can be given to temptation. I found out the hard way when I left my purse in my boyfriend's house for 45 seconds, and had it stolen by an affluent kid who has most likely never had to work a day in his life, with everything in my purse already at his fingertips should he just say the word. It's disgusting, but it's reality.

So York, Are we safe? Only when we are all willing to take responsibility for our own actions, and not a moment until then.


UPDATE:

Information re: January alleged sexual assault

TORONTO, January 29, 2008 -- The Toronto Police Sex Crimes Unit, in cooperation with York University Security Services, has completed its investigation in relation to the alleged sexual assault that was reported to have occurred on Friday, January 11, 2008 at Founders College Residence, York University.

It has been determined that the sexual assault did not occur at York University.


In light of this new information, I realize I entirely forgot to mention the question of flat-out lying or hyperbolizing an encounter out of desperation, the need for attention, and a myriad of motivations that come out of the troubled minds of young women. What's that saying again? Believe none of what you hear, half of what you read? Yea. Case in point, and closed.

The Rower

Two weeks into the new year, the year of my university graduation, and I'm shitting bricks. You know what question I damned sick of? "So, what are you doing when you're done university?" I dunno, what are YOU doing with the rest of your life? Actually, don't answer that, 'cause I need to hear your solid future plans like I need a hole in the head.

I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. That's was barely acceptable when I was in grade 10, and teachers and guidance councillers were making us choose between college and university courses, warning you that "if you don't make the right decisions, you might not get into the program you want in University, and then you won't get a good job, and then you'll be in the wrong career..." like, FUCK, I'm 16!!! Now, 6 years later I still don't have much more of a clue then I did in high school.

And pretty much everyone else I talk to has a step-by-step plan of what they want to be, where they want to go. I know that's not a guarentee for anything for anyone, but at least they got that something to hold on to. I also have no money, pressure for payback of loans, and my mother bitching about my child support ending and not being able to pay the rent. Meaning I got to get a well-paying job, and fast. 700 bucks a month for rent alone don't come easy.

I think I may want to go back to school, get a college degree. That kind of thing is great for media work, or so I hear. But I've had enough stuggle trying to get my deadbeat parents to help me out with school, so its definately not going to happen a second time around. I'd love to travel, but no money. And work? I don't want to get into a dead end job I hate because I made the wrong move when I was desperate for a job coming out of university.

I read in this novel last year, out of the 20 I read in the first semester, I can't remember which one, a metaphor of how humans go through life. It's like the river is our path, and we're rowing toward the end. We're facing backward, seeing our past clearly but rowing into the future blindly. So simple, so cheesy, but damned accurate. I've never felt so rower-like before.

Arg. In the words of the Superbad Beerstore clerk, "Fuck my Life".

Blog Identity

I'm surprisingly chipper and alert after nine hours straight of class, my usually Tuesday schedule, but it may be due to my new commitment to stay healthy, take my supplements, and eat foods generally fresh and unpackaged. So this is what feeling good feels like...in all honesty it probably won't last. Feeling good is exhausting.

We discussed where we are in our portfolio today in my 4304 class, the class that inspired me to start up a new blog, and forcefully stick to it for at least April. So far so good.
We were talking about privacy issues, and how anyone anywhere could access our information, our opinions, our lives. Potential stalker issues, yada yada. Then a lightblub went off in my head ("Cap'n, I think I've had an apostrophe!", "I think you mean 'epiphany'" - Hook), and I realized why that doesn't bother me in the least.

You see, I wouldn't write anything here that I wouldn't say directly to anyone face-to-face. Friend, family, stranger or the like. There are certain things that are meant to be private, or at least said in confidence to a close friend in the confines of your own space. What I love about the medium of the blog is that I'm not imposing my beliefs on anyone who doesn't want to hear them. If you don't like what I say, are offended, or just plain bored, you're doing so on your own accord. Just don't look. And if you are looking, then hey, I must be doing something right. I'm not gonna lie, it's flattering and pleasant to hear friends, acquaintances, and strangers say "hey, loved your blog", or "you're such a good writer", whether or not I think either statement is true (I'm not being modest, I've really never understood why people enjoy my writing so much, especially in the past few days when I've gotten many an essay returned with "it could have been so much more " or "admirable, but much to be corrected". Boo.)

So if anyone wants to track me down after being offended at my comments, or try to piece together who I am through little bits and pieces of fragmented, sporadic postings, go ahead. I'll save you the effort. I'm available for a beer anytime if you really want to get to know me.

DElight

In case you were wondering how I fared since my last post on the dreadful day before my first class of the semester, (and I know you all were holding your breath in painful anticipation,) I totally rocked out with my cock out, and if I had a cock to rock, I totally would.

You know when there's a small group of people, everyone kinda chills amongst each other and gets along. There's no real people who stick out in the group, everyone is kinda equally just there and contributing to whatever goal or topic of conversation is going on. And then a few more people join the group and there's like one or two real cool kids, and then for some reason or another those kids who were an integral part of the previous group totally fade into the background. Yeah. I'm totally that guy.

I've always hated my friday class, mainly for an equal mix of the following reasons:
1. It's Friday
2. It's Modern poetry. Blech.
3. It's full of weird poetry-types that are ironically cool and oh-so-clever

This past Friday, however, only about 40% of the class showed up - the rest either not knowing that our stupid school started in the middle of the first week of the year, or rather deciding to start on the same day as the rest of the normal functioning world. Needless to say, our little group of 12 got on quite well discussing the poetry of Geoffrey Hill (don't worry, I'd never heard of him either), and low and behold, I was listened to by my peers, even asked questions. Hell, I did a coffee run (I don't know how that makes me popular, but it does damn it!). Anyway, next week will go back to normal. My comments will be likely ignored, and I'll be left out of the side-lined conversations about ikea furniture or disney movie plunders. I hate that class.

Anyway, I had a wonderful weekend. I finally got a chance to check out the movie Juno, which was really funny but also really authentic, and could easily pass for a true story. The issue of teen pregnancy was dealt with in a comic but serious manner. Check it out, y'all! I also got to check out an awesome hole-in-the-wall (and horribly placed) bar called Neutral in Kensington Market. It had super 80's retro and current rocky dancey-pop. And it was soooo lovely to hang out with a group of adults and have fun adult conversations (my discussion of a dream I had the previous night about wanting to bang ol' dirty Gene Simmons aside, of course). AND you can't go wrong with 2 dollar shots of jager, bar rails, and beers - with free mix! It almost even contends with Mod Club - GASP, I know. That's almost blasphemous to say...I'll wash my mouth out with some really grade-A Listerine when I'm finished up here.

Anyway, what I love about dirty dance floors with disco balls and spunky brit pop - you can dance any way you like with anyone you like, however you like. And its ok, you're still cool. P.S. you're not going to impress anyone there, so don't worry about trying so hard. Yay!

Lattteees.

Suffering from the EOVBs

As of midnight tonight, it will have been offically 31 days since my last stint in a classroom at York University. 31 glorious days of relaxing, playing video games, eating wayyy too much food and generally being unproductive (minus my few short shifts at work, of course). I woke up this morning (I can honestly say morning, 11:57 am to be exact), and had this strange tingly weight in my chest. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, until a tension spread to my throat and up my serabelum into my brain - "F*CK. I have class tomorrow".

Since a quick google search revealed nothing of the sort, I've decided to put down on the record a name for said type of depression and ill feelings related to the days post-vacation: EOVB, or "End-of-Vacation-Blahs". You probably giggled at that, but I honestly think psychologists and doctors need to take these emotions into consideration. I'm sure you've all felt such feelings of anxeity, despair, dread, and general depression upon returning to work/school/both (as in my case, boo), after a period of "free-time". Personally, the feelings only last a few days, maybe a week or so dependant on the duration of the vacation. But I can imagine that someone already depressed or, even worse, with some sort of mental illness, would be seriously affected by end of vacation depression.

I don't know about you, but as much as I generally enjoy school, I feel like I'm dragging around a ball and chain today. Boo. EOVB for sure.

Resolve to Resolve

So here we are, the first day of 2008. It sure doesn't feel any different than yesterday. The way people make such a big deal out of the new year (although admittedly I'm more a part of the problem than solution), you'd think that you'll wake up in the morning (i.e. mid-afternoon and hungover), and all the sudden you're life is completely different than the night before. Like the year I turned 5, I can remember waking up on the day of my birthday and looking down at my legs under the blankets and shouting to my mom that "WOW my legs are so much longer today!" (true story).

I've never been a big supporter of New Years' resolutions because I don't see a need to wait until a specific date on the calendar to work on an aspect of your life that you admittedly understand needs work. Waiting until January first to fix a problem you noticed in May is ridiculous and also setting yourself up for failure. That being said, I think this year I will travel the well-worn path of the cliche and put into stone some things that I'd like to work on this year. Firstly, I need to stop drinking so much. I don't do drugs, I don't smoke, I don't have any other unhealthy vices, but I do love my beer and my Crown Royals and gingers. Old Blackie (AKA my liver) has a lot of years ahead of him, God willing, and there have been just too many days wasted away in bed and too much money spent on bottles of advil and gravol for my liking. My body and my wallet will thank me.

Secondly, no more McDonalds. Or BK lounge. Or any of those delicious greasy delights. (I already kinda broke that last night after hitting up the Mc D's drive-thru at 4 am for a cheeseburger, but lets strike that from the record.) Cutting back on drinking will definitely help with that, since much of my fast food consumption comes from late-night drunken munchies. Keeping up with the cliche, I need to start working out more. I want to do at least 20 minutes a day every other day. I have a machine I can stick right in front of the television, so I really have no excuse. It's pure laziness, plain and simple. Blame my typical Taurus personality. I do.

Lastly, but definitely not least-ly, I am going to actively work to reduce my ecological footprint. I don't know if any of you have heard of this test, but I know I had to do it several times in high school. You have to answer 16 simple questions about your lifestyle, and then your results are tallied to tell you how many Earths it would take to sustain the human race if everyone in the world lived like you. The results and disgustingly disturbing. I consider myself to be a fairly eco-conscious person. I used only energy efficient light bulbs, take public transit to and from school (as well as the trusty shoe-lace express). I will carry around a plastic or glass bottle for hours until I can find a recycling bin, and I freak out if I see anyone put anything organic in the garbage that can go in the green bin. Despite all this, it would take (prepare yourselves!) 3.4 Earths to sustain a world population of mes'!!

You can take the test for yourself @
http://www.earthday.net/footprint/index_reset.asp?pid=5505029567305942

With that in the back of my mind, I read a book over the holidays entitled "Prophecy" by Sylvia Browne. Yes, she is a psychic, and yes there is no scientific proof to date of her powers and the accuracy of her views, but I can honestly say I read the chapter on the state of the earth over the next hundred years and it literally kept me awake with fear into the wee hours of the morning. Things such as...

--- By 2055 most people will live in domed cities due to poor atmospheric conditions.
--- Acid rain so powerful that specially-made clothing of materials mandatory in all garments
will be created for protecting human skin
--- Eradication of the glaciers. World-wide flooding, and super-heating of the Earth's
atmosphere.
Increased natural disasters often resulting in death and complete distruction of land and
human populations
--- Ozone layer thinning to the point where skin cancer is a regular occurrence, meteors and
space debris that would have once burned up upon entrance in the atmosphere will now
strike Earth's surface, with the potential to wipe out large areas of landmass


Those are some of the predictions I can remember. But there were a whole bunch more, all of which had to do with the Earth's violent reaction to way too many years of mistreatment by humans. She also discussed ancient prophecies of different cultures and religions around the world, all of which speak of a time of plague, warfare, drought and natural disaster. Needless to say, I'm scared shitless. I'm a huge believer in global warming, and I think anyone who still thinks it's a sham is an ignorant, lazy asshole who refuses to accept responsibility for himself and the future of humankind.

There's a video I once saw of a guy who explains global warming and a foolproof plan for combating global warming that both supporters and skeptics (i.e. intelligent, responsible human beings vs. Ignorant, irresponsible assholes) could both agree upon. I couldn't track down the clip again, but the long and short of it was that if we don't act and it's real, we're fooked. Period, game over and you have no marios left. If we do act, and global warming isn't real, we haven't really lost anything and I'm sure the world will be a better place for our efforts. The guy got into the economics and politics of it, but that was the jist of it.

So there you go, a couple of new years resolutions for the start of a new year. If you don't have any yet, please please please, for the sake of yourself and your children and your children's children, take better care of the Earth and make some conscious efforts to avoid biting the hand that feeds you. I'm not looking forward to starving.